I’m having suicidal thoughts. I want to talk to somebody but don’t want to call a hotline or anything because I’m afraid of my parents finding out. I think they will make me go to a counselor or something if they do. I’m having suicidal thoughts because my grades are very low and my parents act like they are proud of my brothers and sisters but they don’t act like they are proud of me. I understand that they don’t really have a reason to be proud of me with my grades being so bad but it’s too obvious not to notice. I’m afraid that if I did commit suicide it would put one of my family members in depression leading to them killing themselves. Which is holding me back from committing it. Please help me.