Today is thanksgiving and I was really worried about it because I’ve had on and off eating disorders since around 6th grade. Such a big meal with everyone watching me was really scary and as soon as i got a little bit of food in my mouth I wanted to throw up. I spent the rest of today feeling like I wasnt good enough for anything or anyone. I didnt throw up because I physically couldnt make myself, like, i was trying to but it didnt work. Im too scared to talk to a friend because theyll just think Im annoying or that I want attention. I’ve always been very very uncomfortable with my body, especially exercising, and i get really embarassed, so i feel a lot better if i throw up my food (it feels like progress) even though i know it isnt healthy. I am by no means skinny, I have a really large stomach that I always cover up and my family always tells me i need to lose weight or makes comments about my size. How do I feel better about my body, be more comfortable exercising around other people, and not regret eating? I know I have a lot to be thankful for, and I know I’m going to be okay, i just need a little help. Thanks to all the counselors who put in the time for this, its really amazing what you guys do and not enough people know about this site! Happy Thanksgiving!!!