I wish if you could help me with it.
I think I’m addicted to my phone and the computer.
I’m not able to study properly. I’ve just passed school and it took me a lot of struggle at the eleventh hour to get above average grades. I didn’t study the entire year. Instead, spent time in useless things I knew wouldn’t pay me back. I’d spent more than 2K hours on all this the whole year and no more than 20 hours on academics. And I don’t know exactly how much time was lost before that.
What I do is, just as the operating system seems to get a little older, I re-install everything and setup the entire system, again and again, and it seems there is no end to it. I don’t like clutter. I do the same with other things too. It’s like, when I want to sit for study, something or the other occupies my thought and I then accomplish it first and this goes on and I end up procrastinating my study sessions.
Maybe I’ve an OCD and I couldn’t help myself anymore. I believe that my ability to sit and study even for an hour has vanished into nothingness. I think of studying when all the things that seek my attention are sorted out, and that never happens. And even at night I spend all my active hours on my PC. My parents think I study at night and they sleep.
So many topics have to be covered for other examinations and I’m just keeping everything to the end. Just a few days left for the next big exam. Other fellows are already done with more than half of the course. All they have to do is revise at the last day, and here I would be struggling to remember things for the first time and panicking. It still could be prevented. I’ve a week left!
Maybe I fear that I wouldn’t be able to complete it and I lack time, I don’t know. My competitors are ahead of me and maybe that’s why I’m not able to do it well.
It’s like I’m stuck in a chain of not spending time on academics and procrastination. And I’m not able to brake out of that chain of processes!
What do I do?